A Breath of Fresh, Cold Air

I don’t know what got into me. Here I am, in the midst of a winter storm, taking a picture.

It was silly, impulsive and I’m sure my lungs are going to kill me for it later. It was what I needed.

You see that smile? Yep, this was a turning point for me.

Let’s go back. Two years ago, I started a new journey– New job, new city, new decade– I just knew turning 30 would be turning point in my life. I was in control.

It was a turning point. Just not the way I wanted.

At 30, I realized a career I longed for left me feeling burned out and low. It was the year where lifelong friendships I relied heavily on disappeared and I was truly in a strange city on my own.  I didn’t have control of things after all and the realization left me feeling lost and insecure.

I’ve carried this feeling (I call it the fog) for the last two years. Who was I without the dream I’ve had for so long? Where do I go next? What should I do? These questions left me paralyzed with fear. This fog became so thick, I lost sight of everything.

Until today. On this cold, snowy day in Northern Indiana, the fog began to clear. I felt the heaviness on my chest ease as I smiled in front of a camera in the crispy, winter air. The cold air hit my skin and I felt revived. I felt like me again.

At this moment, I realized that there was no time like the present; that I could no longer wait for things to come. It was up to me to be the change I wanted to see– in myself and in the world.

2017 has shown me a lot of things I didn’t want, but it also cleared a path that I look forward to exploring. I’m now 32 and I want to take control of my life again. I want to travel, discover the world and my place in it. I want to do something bigger than myself.  I like this feeling.

I want to chronicle my journey of finding my way through the fog, discovering my passions and sharing them with the world. Hopefully this blog offers inspiration and empowerment. Maybe it serves as relief during a long, hectic day. I just know for whatever time I do have on this earth, I want to make sure I live in my purpose every day.

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